"Because I'm happy, clap along if you feel like a room without a roof, Because I'm happy,

Clap along if you feel like happiness is the truth." Pharrell Williams (happy) 

Achente plays Tracy

Tracy, 

I've always wondered, and have been wondering how someone could look so damn happy, feel so damn happy every damn day. 

I'm just wondering, when everyone hears that I've died, will you still have that stupid, stupid grin on your face? 

Sorry about that. 

I've envied the naive ones. It's just that they've never been exposed to reality before. I wish it were the same for me. 

Have I ruined your image of our perfect little world? 

Sorry, Tracy. I didn't mean that either. 

But your happiness isn't worth my death.

What I'm really writing about is something far more deeper. 

Remember back in freshman year, we were lab partners for chemistry, you asked me why someone would willingly give up life?

I've pondered that over the years, through thick and thin, through my happiness and depression. 

Maybe my answer isn't going to be one that you like to hear, but since you've asked, I'm only going to return the favor by quenching your thirst for knowledge. 

I think that one would willingly give up life because they've given up hope on this life. Maybe they can't find happiness, or maybe they've been hurt and broken in ways we cannot begin to imagine and they are too far gone. 

Either way, they've given up, and I think I have too. 

If you were in my shoes, would you be strong enough to keep hope in the world? If the answer is yes, I respect you. Because, I am too weak to remain here. 

I don't think this world is for me. 

I hope you have your answer,

Natalie Palmer

A/n: five more letters until completion. And Tracy, consider this your birthday gift >_< This song brings me back to fifth grade times- when homework wasn't your nightmare. 

I realized that I really need to change this cover. .Um.... I think I'm going to update either The ROSE Project or Reflection of Perfection next. 

until next time,

which is a very long time, 

EMILY: QUEEN OF SPADES