~~~Shivaay's POV~~~

"She was addicted to murdering peoples. She got very rich as she used to trap rich man's and later kill them and steal their money. Police was after her for years but everytime she killed someone, she used to go underground." she paused and i breathed out the long held breath.

I feel like killing myself for loving that girl. How can she be so cruel? Doesn't she had thing called heart?

"Her family knew everything but still they didn't stopped her, instead they supported her and even used her money. S-She reached her place. I just wanted to tell you all by myself, before you get to know it from somewhere or someone else." she looked at me and i smiled wiping her few tears.

Kissing her forehead, i hugged her

"Anika. I'm happy as you yourself told me everything, despite the fact that it'll hurt you the most." she smiled and i too smiled

"But from now onwards Anika Raichand's chapter finishes here only! We'll not talk about her or anything related to her. I don't want to see you hurt or crying." i kissed her hair "We'll never talk about her,okay?" i asked and she looked at me

"But..." i cut her in mid "No but and wut. It's final and it's my decision. It's over. Let's talk about something else." i sternly said and she smiled

I really don't want that topic to ever come up again. This will hurt my koel, and i don't want to see her hurt or crying anymore.

I looked down at her and she was in thoughts again. I slowly caresses her back and she gulped.

"Shivaay" she said before i could ask her.

"Yeah?"

"I know why omru didn't let you go anywhere and snatched your mobile." she spoked i looked at her again, parting.

"H-how?" she knows the most wanted answer. I so wanted to know but i never asked them. And here she knows it, but how?

"I've asked them when you were missing..." she looked at me and i gulped.

What it could be? Why they did that with me?

"What's the reason anika?." i asked and she held my hand tightly. Looking at me in my eyes.

"Rahul." she said and i held back her hand tightly.

Did they do it because i was happy with rahul? I loved rahul?

"They didn't do it as they hated your and rahul's bonding. But they did that as they didn't wanted to see you broken. They handled the sad shivaay and made sure you never get to know about rahul as you'll be broken, then." she said rubbing my hands

"Whatt??" i asked confusingly as I'm not understanding what she meant And what she's trying to tell.

"Umm... See they called you there on urgency as they got to know that you're very tensed due to rahul, they wanted you to come here without knowing that they're calling you as they cares for you. Are you understanding?" she asked and i looked at her puzzled.

They cares for me and they don't want me to know that they cares for me???

"Yes." i said and she sighed

"When you were there with them. Rudy used your mobile, didn't he?"

"He did. For some call."

"Yes. After that call when he was about to lock it. He saw a mail. Which was send to you by yoir inspector friend." she paused and i held her hand tightly. "... In that mail ... I mean that e-mail contained rahul's death news. To not let you know that news by any sources, they snatched your mobile. They didn't wanted to see you broken." she sighd and held my face between her hands

"I know they were insecure seeing you with rahul. They hated your and his bonding. Who'll not get jealous? But, they would never be so cruel till it's about you. They didn't communicated with you all the while as they were angry with you. Somewhere, shivaay some where even you was wrong. I understand your Point of view and theirs too. Both are right and wrong. Both did mistakes somewhere. Both! I saw you being angry with them last night.

Shivaay... Please don't be. All the happenings were meant to happen. It's gone. Let's take a new fresh."
i tried speaking and she showed me her hand huh?

"No shivaay! Don't tell me they did bad with me, as even you've done a lot bad with me. But still, i forgave you. In front of your mistakes, their mistake is nothing. I said let's take a new start and its not for us, only. But for us all. Its an order you need to follow. A decision, on which you've to agree." she sternly said.

I felt hurt and guilt brimmed up in my heart, i feel really low thinking about the miseries she had gone through, just because of me.

"Okay." i smiled to not hurt her anymore. I will try my best to keep her happy and healthy.

"Let's meet everyone. Breakfast is done. And yeah, they'll apologize From us. Don't act like a king and show attitude. Do what I'll do. And you've to apologize too." she said standing up.

I'm amazed by her behavior. I smile and followed her till hall silently. I wanted to kiss her but she would've never let me.

"Shivaay" maa called me and i turned toward the direction, the voice came from. All were standing with luggages.

"Where are you guys going?" anika asked amazed while moving toward them

"We've decided to go back." om slowly moved toward anika

"You're not going anywhere." i immediately said and all looked at me shocked. "I mean...' i composed myself and looked at anika, who's giving me angry glares for suddenly stopping. She must've thought I'll be showing some attitude.

"I know... You all think I'll be angry and will not like to see you here. But it's not like that. You're my family. And i can never be angry with you guys. Whatever you did with anika is nothing. I've done more bad with her." i lowered my head and gulped "She has forgiven me and you guys. She was never angry with you all, still she's saying, that she has forgiven you to make me understand." i walked toward anika and held her by her shoulders

"We've lived a long life without family and their love." tears starts brimming in everyone's and our's eyes. "Now, let's live together, happily?" l averted my gaze toward all. Who lowers their gaze.

"Shivaay we're sorry." om moved toward us and placed his hand on my shoulder. "We're really very sorry. Whatever happened till date wasn't right at all. But..." he paused and i pulled him in a hug moving away from anika "Om... We all were wrong. " i looked at anika while saying so and she smiled happily.

"O-Obro hug. Without me" rudy crying spoke and i called him. He immediately hoped over us and joined the hug.

Feels good to be close to few people's. Family, brothers (Specially ), and Love. I feel luckiest to be with all now.

After fine minute's of hug we parted and apologized once again. Apologizing, my brothers isn't a big deal for me.

After hugging everyone. We sat down on sofa's to have some talks.

"Shivaay we'll be going still." badi maa spoke making anika and me shocked.

"No. You can't." we both said together and they exchanged glances.

"We've decided. It's final." dad said and i breathed out of frustration.

"Whyyy??" i asked

"We just don't want to live here. See you both has forgiven us but we can't... We can't face you bothz daily. It's hard." dadi said and anika held her hand "But we need you" she said with tears rolling down

"We'll be Skyping daily. But... We're going." bade papa stood up and held the luggage

"Where? You've no Place to go... Wait." i said and stood up "Omru... You can't go. Do you want to hurt me again. Let them go. You both stay here?" i said as tears rolled down.

After rahul they're only left whom i love like him. And they also want to stay away from me even after everything is fine.

"No bhaiya. I'll not leave you. Sorry everyone. I'm staying with bhai." rudra said as he held my hand

"Same here" om held the other hand and all looked at them

"You all don't want to stay with us, as you can't face us daily, right?" i asked and maa nodded

"Fine then. I've another house here. Shift there, but just stay nearby us. So we can meet you easily. Please don't deny. You've no place to go in india. Live here. Work here. Do whatever you want to but be near us?" i said as more tears rolled down

"But..." dadi said

"No dadi. Please don't say anything more. It's decided shivaay. They'll be staying in your other house. Where it is?" anika asked squeezing dadi's hand while lookig at me "20 steps away." i replied and she smiled broadly.

"Like floors away."

"Okay." dadi said and i smiled

Soon i dropped them all there while omru shifted back to their floors. (In Shivika mansion only)

After breakfast I got ready to go office. But when i was about to step out of room. Anika whined.

"You can't go living me. I feel so bored. See it's after so long that we're happy, very happy. I want to enjoy. Take me with you or just don't go."

I've so much important files to sign and few other works to do. How can i skip it? I looked at her and he puppy face!!!

"Fine. Get ready. We're leaving for office. Be fast but don't be too fast. Remember you've another life to take care of" i smiled and she excitedly ran toward washroom.

As she was getting ready i walked toward couch and sitting down, i started checking my mails, which were left.

While checking mail i received a message from my network company. I opened it and what i saw next shooked me. There was a message from anika.

on the day all the happiness got scattered. It must be of 1000 words...

"Shivaay. I don't know where are you and why you're not receiving my calls. I don't even know if you'll see this message or not. But, i wanted to tell you this from so long. I got no time or whenever i got, i couldn't start the conversation. I know shivaay you still have a doubt on me about being anika and not koel. It's fair too. How can you even believe me, when I've no proof to prove it right or wrong?... I even don't know why you hate anika son much... I just had an idea that maybe she's the reason behind all your sufferings, but it's just an idea.
I also know, in fact I'm sure about it that she may have cheated you or something like that as it's her specialty, she's master in thuging rich peoples.

Today i was determined about telling all the secrets to you but you're nowhere to be seen. And it's scaring me. I feels as it's the silence before storm and i don't want that storm to come becuase of me as I've not told you few things, which maybe you wanted to know.

Please... Believe me. I'm not anika and whatever i told you is truth. In fact the real anika whom you hate is dead. She died last year in an encounter (She explained all which she revealed in last chapter.)

And also... I've told you about it but not much clearly. I told you that there's someone who thuged gauri by my name, something like this. But the truth is. She didn't just used my name but also she looks like me. Maybe that's the reason she used my name as she looks like me...
I'm telling you this as she wants to be your wife. I don't know why but i feel like she'll do something to part us or separate us.

When i was kidnapped in london. I felt as it's all over. I'll never meet you again because i had an idea and also my gut feeling was constantly making me think. That you'll never know I'm kidnapped as that fake anika might take my place. But thankfully you found me... Maybe my thoughts were right but somehow her plan failed.
Maybe that's the reason the kidnappers ran away.

Shivaay i don't want to lose you. After my diary you're the only person whom i like and trust. On whom i can rely. Whom i can't afford loosing. I feels secure with you despite the fact that you married me because of some motive, I've still started liking you. It's not in my control, I've some strong feelings toward you. I can't imagine my rest of life without you.
And if it happens because i didn't told you all this then I'll never be able to forgive my own self.

Happiness has come back after long wait of 13 years shivaay. In form of you. You're my only family and happiness. I don't want to lose you. I don't want to even imagine my life without you, now.

Please never leave me or hurt me. Your words hurts the most shivaay as you're the only person matters to me... Please don't do something about which i won't be able to forgive you, and we've to part Away. Please shivaay.

Wherever you're, please come back to me.
I just pray that you're fine...

I like you shivaay, i really do.

I don't think i would've been able to say all this face to face. But I'm little happy as i said all this here...

Come back. Soon!"

Tears were covering my face as i finished reading the message. She told me every fucking thing, but i the idiot didn't read the message? Why i didn't checked my mobile at that time???

I feel more low now. She didn't wanted me to hurt her by my words, and i hurted her with my.. Actions. I snatched away her...

I looked at the message and more tears rolled down. Guilty more then before.

"Shivaay let's go." i heard her and immediately locked my mobile.

Wiping my tears i looked at her smiling face and then walked to her slowly. She was looking at me confused before i hugged her and silently cried on her shoulder.

"Shivaay what happened." she asked rubbing my back

"I'm feeling more guilty for hurting you anika. How can i be so heartless? Though i never wanted to hurt you this much but I've hurted you and it's guilt is just increasing..." i said holding her tightly

"You hurted me??? When?" she asked seriously and i looked at her shocked, parting. "What you're saying anika.?" i said

"You're forgetting we've decided to take new start. And in this new phase nothing has happened. Please shivaay, let's not talk about all that. You're not just increasing yout guilt by thinking but also increasing my mental pain by bringing it up again and again. You think it'll not hurt me?" she asked with low voice on the edge of breaking down.

I'm a complete jerk. Why I didn't think about it? It must be very painful for her and more difficult for her to overcome it. But she's trying and here I'm making it more difficult for her.