"Abrax calm down please" Kili begged resting his hand on my armoured chest. Fili and I have had a falling out, what Fili didn't realise was that he had crossed the line. Just because he was a father of two he was telling me how to take care of Frerin, he doesn't understand its hard to be the saviour of the city and take care of your family and I still didn't like the fact that I hard a guard traipsing me everywhere I went. I had become enraged. "Abrax be the wolf you once were" he said to me.

That caused me to pause and I looked down at Kili, he could see in my eyes the real me was hiding behind them. I pined and put a paw to my face before running it down my face. I was fed up with this, I was always in the wrong and Fili was always right. I just huffed and walked out of the room. I turned back into my human form which felt very strange. I had found myself wandering to Frerins nursery where I picked up my son, I carried him in my arms till I made my way to the grand hall.

Thorin was there. "What is going on between you and my nephew Fili?" Thorin asked.

"None of your concern" I snarled, turning into my wolf and cuddling my son closer to me.

"Abrax he is only trying to help you with Frerin and trying to help you with parenting" He explained to me. I just huffed and handed my baby to Thorin. "Abrax what are you doing?" He asked as I padded away.

"Somewhere to breathe" I said collapsing onto all fours and lolloped away. I went to the gate outside Erebor and I stayed there pacing up and down, my ears were laying against my neck and I would allow a little pine out every now and then. Kili walked outside to me and I ran my head into his chest stopping me in my tracks, he wrapped his arms around my neck and I rested a paw around his back.

Tears dribbled down my fur. "It's alright Abrax I understand it's painful" he said running his fingers through my fur. I sat down on my haunches turning into human and I was on my knees. Kili was crouched down next to me.

"Kili I am useless" I sobbed.

"You're not useless" He told me.

"I feel it. I can do nothing but fight and protect. Kili I can't even carry your child with out losing it" I pined.

"Oh Abrax, don't feel like that Hun. Not everything goes according to plan and lives are lost, but you can fight and protect well and that is nothing to be ashamed of" He told me.

I just looked down at my gloves hands, but Kili put his finger under my chin and made me look up at him and he kissed me softly. "I love you and need you" he told me.

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