(Warning mature chapter)

That night was amazing.

I didn't cut when I was hurting.

If only it stayed that way.

My arm was cut up and scarred and there was no way those scars were ever going to be gone. It's gonna be there for life. And I'm too weak to tell anyone. I can't tell Batman. I can't tell my little brother Jason. I can't tell Black Canary. I'm just so weak and worthless.

'You are so weak you don't deserve to live, You should go find a tall building and jump' These intrusive thoughts have taken all my self confidence and I just don't want to live anymore. But I'm going to live for Wally. Beyond all odds he somehow loves a worthless piece of crap like me. I wasn't gonna kill myself and hurt him like that. I was gonna live as long as he wanted me to. I owe him that much.

"Birdy come back to bed I miss cuddling you." Kid Cutie beckons me back to bed and I slide into his arms.

I whisper in his ear. "Wally I'll be back in a minute okay I need to use the bathroom. I'll be right back." 

He gets close to my ear. "Okay but I'm checking your wrists afterwards. Don't do anything to hurt yourself okay." I shiver at the feeling of his breath on my ear before heading to the bathroom next to my bedroom and pulling out the razor I hid in there.

He was gonna check my wrists but what about my thighs? He wouldn't check there right?

I rolls my pants up putting the blade to my thigh sliding it across slowly. I gasp at the feeling and suddenly I hear banging on the door. "Robin I heard that please tell me you didn't just do what I think you did? Open the door before I walk in on you" Crap I'm still bleeding I quickly put some toilet paper to clot the blood roll down my pant leg and open the door.

"I'm not cutting you can check my wrist if you..." He's looking at mt pant leg I look down and see the blood on my pants. Wally picks me up puts me on the bed and rolls up my pant leg to see what I've been hiding.

"Baby Bird... I told you I was going to help you. Please don't hide things from me I can't help you if you do." He pulls me into a hug. He's rocking me back and forth., and I start crying. 

"Wally, I don't want to deal with my pain anymore. I just don't want to be here anymore." KF looks like he's about to panic. "I'll do it for you though. I don't want you to have to deal with my death. I love you too much to put you through that." He buries his face in my shoulder hearing this.

"Baby Bird I promise if you stick around I'll give you a life that's worth living not only out of a sense of duty but also because you want to live. You just have to stick around okay? I'm gonna make it worth it. I promise. Just stay with me. Please? Don't leave me. It's gonna be alright." I nuzzle him.

I smile knowing how much he loves me. "I'm here as long as you want me okay. I'm not gonna leave you I love you too  much to put you through that. I'm not gonna leave you."He kisses me hearing this. 

I'm going to be here as long as he wants me and I'm going to try my best to heal. He deserves someone who isn't as broken as I am. He doesn't deserve someone who is broken at all. He deserves someone who can make him happy not just make him worry about them killing themselves. I want to be that guy. I want to be the guy who can make Wally happy. I'm going to make him happy. I'm going to be that boy. It might take me some time though.

But you know I'm young I have a lot of time.

--Birdflash-Birdflash-Birdflash--

Well that was part two I'm hoping my friend likes it. Hey Nic tell me in the comments how your liking it and if I should make a part three. And if anyone has a request for me message me I'll get to your request as soon as possible.The only requests I don't do are porn or suicide because that's a hit too intense for me. I can imply stuff or do suicidal thoughts or attempts but no going all the way got it. 

Well Bai 

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