he once said, waiting is my biggest weaken point. i can hear him said that, over and over again on my mind, in his sarcastic tone.

maybe he wasn't wrong.

i keep running all day long from my addiction, do all i can do to distract myself from her.

it's raining. i was soaking wet and i didn't even care about it anymore.

why would i care for myself if my dearly soul doesn't even care?

i feel bad. literally.

and there's no one home.

no one to call and no one cares.

i need some meds. where did they leave them?

she's an addiction, and i'm addicted to her. and she give me some exactly effects of an addition.

i'm good when i'm with her, i'm desperate when she's not around, and my fingers tingling at her name on my message list. i keep running back to our old memories, her video, her recording, some of her comments here and there, and i checked her page, her social medias. i can't even drop that "hahaha you love me" meme here, i'm not sure if she's still in love or not.

it's not good for me, but i just can't stop it.

another sleepless night, isn't it, dearly?

just like barney to robin, and never have i ever felt his loving words this strong. you know, this girl has a hold on my heart that i could not break if i wanted to. and there have been times when i wanted to, like today, but she's an addition, she's dangerous, she's killing me slowly. it has been overwhelming and humbling, and even painful at times, but i could not stop loving her any more than i could stop breathing. i'm hopelessly, irretrievably in love with her. i'm missing her, i miss her and i'm missing her. she is leaving. she's great. i saw her on my notification board, and she's great. i wonder if i'm still on her mind or not. but she's taking my soul, slowly, kindly, and more than she knows.

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