"You ask me why I'm not happy, Why I'm not perfect for you, why I don't lay my respect, my love at your feet?"

"Because I HATE you. You hurt me, yet you think you deserve my love. You neglect me, yet you think I OWE you my respect."

"I've already accepted that the perfection you seek, I'll never become.... so I embraced being your greatest failure, being the thing you hate the most."

"Are you happy mom? Are you proud dad? I'm everything you never wanted, your perfect MISTAKE."

"You told me all I could ever do Was KILL, that I KILLED my brother, that my selfishness killed your dream of the perfect family. That you couldn't bear calling a 'selfish' child your own."

"You couldn't bear that responsibility, could you? Your IMAGE was at stake after all. So you just didn't, you just left me alone to my own devices, left me to figure things on my own. Only to scream in horror at the comfort I sought out, only to lecture and show your displeasure. Express how 'the dead, was one company to seek'"

" I killed, and I healed, I Killed with a power not mine, revived with the power I owned yet my lack of control you scorned."

"Yes scold me! Express your displeasure, show me that horror in your face, the horror of a mother whose son killed with powers out of his control, with a son who could not stop the harm his powers dealt. I revived what I killed yet that wasn't enough for you. Not for me and not for you."

"I killed, and that was 'unforgivable 'Disgusting' 'Horrendous' blamed it on my imperfection, on my selfishness, then try to act as though you loved me, only for the approving eyes of the outside world."

"I Killed and I revive and the undead's company I kept, despite your persistent displeasure, but the one thing I wanted most no power of mine could ever bring back."

" The mastery of death I held and yet the one I wished to revive, was the one being I couldn't."

"I wanted LOVE, I wanted YOUR approval, I wanted something REAL, something LIVING to LOVE me, to CARE for me, but you're not capable of that are you?"

"The only one who would've loved me was him... the twin I so selfishly killed, the Twin who now resided as apart of myself. A twin with whom I felt the deepest connection, the closest bond, he fondest love, yet I couldn't bring him back, I couldn't speak with him."

"The twin whose powers I couldn't control, whose powers didn't belong to me. The brother with whom I loved so deeply yet resented all the same. A brother who because of me, wasn't alive, and of which branded me with imperfection and resentment, and those ALONE from our parents."

"I miss you.... I love you.... I wish you were here...alive being the family I needed, giving the love I desired, being the company I needed, But I'm selfish, I stole you away from the world, from our parents, and with it, I stole the light from our parent's lives, the happiness from my own, the life I wanted."

"So inevitably I grew up, and I learned That YOU are the only person you can trust, that YOU are the only one looking out for you. I tried to be the perfection our parents wanted, tried to be polished and spotless, but no matter my attempts I was always met with disapproval, disdain. So I resigned myself to my magic to my practice, becoming a necromancer to our parent's dismay, as if the outcome wasn't obvious."

"I became my own company, my undead my background noise. I improved my magic as a last-ditch effort for their seal of approval, but alas not even mastery of death gained their approval. If I was the most powerful of death magic users, their approval I still didn't get."

"Finally I had begun to realize the dark truth, that I'd never reach their unattainable expectation, I'd always be doomed to fail. So with my growing solitude so too did my anger, my fury, my self-hatred, my sadness, and I revolved to destroy the society that pushed the expectation for a perfect family, teach the world so full of selfish and ungrateful creatures to RELISH what they have, the love they were so privileged and lucky to gain. If people don't know what they've lost till it's gone I'll gladly be the villain to take it. Hard lessons required hard choices."

"The same society that lets cruel people destroy lives, harm others if becoming that cruel person to teach people to love, and cherish than that's what I'll become, Hate me, blame your cruelty on me, then when I'm gone realize just how SICK your kind is. Selfishly running through life, pushing expectations for perfection, for love, friendship, familial bonds. Filled with mother's hating daughters, brother's hating sister, thieving eldest son's, family taken for granted."