Why do I care about you? Why does my heart twist and ache for you? How did you take control of my heart like this?

I should hate you, I want to, but I can't stop caring. Your supposed to be my prey, my bitch, the toy I play with for my own amusement, yet somehow, I care about you.

When did I start to care about you? When did everything change? When did I start wanting that look of fesr that used to give me life, to turn into love?

Even now Makani.... I want you to love me... Like a pathetic puppy I desperately want you to care. I don't deserve you care and I hate that I care about your opinion, your feelings, I gain nothing from caring I'm more likely to get hurt than anything. To care, it's not in my best interest even remotely, I got more from forcing you to my will than I ever do now, yet I'm still happier, but alas, also sadder. I'm happier being with you.... Its sick I hate it, what lion needs a pathetic lamb to make it happy? However, I'm also sadder, because apart of me, it hopes, it wishes you loved me too, it wishes you loved me even half as much as I love you. I know I don't deserve it, it don't deserve a happy ending, I don't deserve your love for what I've done to you, but I want you to be mine.....admitting that make feel disgusting, it makes my skin crawl, but if it were to come true.... If you were to love me and be mine....I would be happy... Finally happy. For once I would admit to loving you, I would accept being weak for you, I wouldn't care what happened or what people say, because I'd have you.... But there's nothing keeping you here.. You aren't mine, your free to do as you will, and it scares me.

I'm scared...Makani.... I'm scared to lose you, you've become the thing I love most in the world, the only thing I care about, and I shouldn't, I shouldn't care, but you are my world.

You mean the world to me, and for you I'd burn the world down if you asked me to, I'd make the world heaven for you....because....because I love you....and for some reason, I want you to be happy, I want you to be happy with me.