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Jeno lies he was fine

And Jaemin believes it

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"Jaemin, I got us tickets for the new concert! Wanna come with me?" Jeno walks behind Jaemin who is now putting his jacket on and walking towards the door.

"Sorry Jeno, maybe next time okay?" Jaemin asks and didn't even turn around as he closed the door on Jeno.

Jeno stood frozen there. Tickets in hand.

Jeno looked down at them, and wondered what happened to them.

By them he means Jaemin and him. They used to be so close, the best' of friends, anywhere Jeno go Jaemin would, and it'd be click wise. But these past few weeks it feels at though Jaemin is ignoring Jeno. Leaving him behind.

Jaemin was always going out with friends, getting high, and clubbing. Jeno tried to stop it, but that only led to Jaemin not even looking at him. Jeno felt his heart hurt every time he looked at Jaemin.

Jeno slowly put in his headphones as he walked out on the old balcony, and pulled out a cigarette. He lit it and took an inhale, and exhaled smoke. He knew smoking was bad for him, but he didn't care. He deserved it.

Jeno let the cold air fly through his hair and grasp onto his skin. He felt at peace, and just felt like sleeping again.

He felt sick again.

He then coughed but shrugged it off as he always does, and walked back in to cook. He always cooked for Jaemin when he came back home from either his friends or clubbing, Jeno didn't mind.

He knew he had fallen in love with the latter. He fell into the little trap that Jaemin set, and now he can't escape.

Jeno started cooking but then felt a sharp pain in his chest. Jeno instantly dropped all the materials he was holding and gave a small cry of help as he fell to the ground and grasped his chest with his hands. He closed his eyes, waiting for the pain to stop, and slowly it died down. Jeno gasped out of breath, and was bewildered of what just happened.

He then picked himself back up and staggered his way into the bathroom, there he threw open the medicine cabinet and threw the ones he didn't need on the floor. Jeno felt tears stain his cheeks, and his chest was beginning to pain again. It felt like he was burning and he wanted it to stop. He then found the medicine bottle and struggled to open it as he felt so weak all the sudden. He fell to his knees and the bottle opened, he then turned it upside down and all pills came flying out. He picked up one and crawled over to the bath tub in desperation.

He turned it on and instantly put a hand full of water in his mouth and gulped down the pill. He gasped for air, as he felt he didn't have any of it anymore. He kept grasping his heart in pain. He gave a little scream of pain, and he leaned against a wall. He closed his eyes and just kept wishing for the pain to stop.

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"Ha! See ya Jae!" His friend yelled out the window with a cigarette in mouth.

"See ya!" Jaemin yelled as he walked up to the run down house. He walked in and walked to the kitchen, expecting a plate of food there for him.

There wasn't one.

He raised an eyebrow in confusion and heard some noises from the bathroom.

"Jeno?" Jaemin yelled out and he heard a door close, then a lock.

"Jeno is that you?" Jaemin yelled out and walked towards where the door closed. The bathroom. He then gave two small knocks on the door.

"Jeno! You good?" Jaemin asked.

"Y-yes! I-I'm fine!" Jaemin couldn't see but he could hear the struggle for oxygen, he heard the pain in Jenos voice.

"Open the door!" Jaemin yelled out and started yanking at the door knob.

"N-no! Don't c-come- come in!" Jeno gasped out.

"Open the door Jeno!" Jaemin was now using his body force to open the door. He was banging up against it as his instinct told him to.

"N-no! P-Lea-se go a-way!" Jeno cried out.

Jaemin then, with one full blast of strength, slammed the door open. He then caught sight of all the pills and water spilled, then he saw Jeno. Head down, panting like a mad man, with hands on chest.

"Jeno!" Jaemin instantly fell to his knees infront of Jeno and lifted his head, and took a breath of air. Jeno looked horrible. Bags under his eyes, he looked sick, and his face told a whole other story.

Then it showed pain and Jeno instantly made a small cry again.

"What's wrong! Where does it hurt!" Jaemin was panicking. He was trying to see what was going on with Jenos chest but Jenos hands were so fragile and shaken he was scared.

Jeno then stopped panting hard and let go of his chest as he looked up at Jaemin. Jaemin and him made eye contact for a split second before Jeno looked high all the sudden and his body then fell forward and Jaemin quickly caught him.

"Jeno!" Jaemin called out as he tried to wake up the passed out male. Jeno didn't budge, and Jaemin panicked. Then he quickly calmed himself. He took deep breaths as he inhaled and exhaled.

"He's gonna be okay Jaemin. Calm yourself." Jaemin whispered to himself.

Jaemin then picked up the limp body bridal style, and walked out of the bathroom into the room. He slowly laid Jeno down, and went into the kitchen for a wet rag. He then ran back and put it on top of Jenos forehead.

Jaemin waited. And waited. All night.

Finally Jeno woke up. Slowly, but surely.

"Jeno! Thank god your okay!" Jaemin exclaimed as he smiled towards the tired looking boy.

Jeno could only give a small smile towards the relieved boy. His body felt so stiff, and he felt so tired, weak. His heart felt weak.

"Jeno?" Jaemins smile turned into a frown, and Jeno felt his heart hurt more. He then leaned his skinny arm out and Jaemin instantly caught onto the movement and moved Jenos hand to his face. Jeno smiled.

"What's wrong? What- why were you like that last night?" Jaemin kept asking.

Jeno just kept smiling and caressing Jaemins face.

Jeno knew. He knew his time was short now. He wanted Jaemin to be happy though. He needed him to be happy. If Jaemin was happy then he was. Jeno could never be happy in life without Jaemin.

"Jeno what-" then a phone call interrupted Jaemin mid sentence.

Jaemin slowly brought the phone out and answered.

"Yo Jaemin! Where you at??! This party is hella lit!! Get here now!" A guy screamed through the phone who was clearly drunk.

Jeno wanted to frown and say no but the gleam in Jaemins eyes made him stop himself. His heart hurt again. He knew he couldn't stop Jaemin from going. He knew he couldn't.

Why would he try anyway. If this made Jaemin happy then so be it.

"I..." Jaemin started, and then looked at Jeno.

Jeno knew what he was referring to and instantly furrowed his eyebrows and pushed Jaemin slightly with his hand. If Jaemin stayed then he would be a burden, and he'd never forgive himself.

Jaemin looked a little taken back by the action.

"Im bout to get laid by this chick bro! See yah here later!" The guy yelled and hung up.

Jaemin was still looking at Jeno, confused by his action.

Jeno then gave a small smile and gestures towards the phone. Then he used his energy to mouth a small "go" to Jaemin.

Jaemin just stood there.

He didn't know what to feel. He didn't.

"Jeno I..." Jaemin started.

Jeno then started shaking his head and his limp hand pointed towards the door.

Jaemin looked towards the door, then back at Jeno.

Jeno only nodded weakly, and felt his eye lids droop. He felt tired again.

The last thing Jeno could remember was Jaemin leaving, and when that door closed, he fell into sleep.

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He felt someone shaking him, but he couldn't pinpoint who. He heard soft words, but he didn't know from who. He felt like his brain was being brain washed, and he couldn't do anything about it. His body felt weak, stiff and unable to do things.

He refused to open his eyes, but had to once he smelled a delicious smell.
He slowly opened his eyes and was met with brown ones. But he couldn't remember who from.

Then the beautiful boy spoke, and Jeno swore he's heard that voice before, but he can't remember where.

The boy placed a tray infront of him as he helped Jeno sit up. Jeno was confused. Why was this stranger helping him?

"Eat Jeno." The stranger said and Jeno was taken back.

He raised an eyebrow towards the stranger. How did he know his name?

"What's wrong?" The stranger asked.

"Who are you?" Jeno blurted out in a hoarse voice.

Then the stranger got real still, like a statue, and looked Jeno right in the eye.

"Jeno, it's me. It's Jaemin." Jaemin said slowly as he had a pained look.

"Who?" Jeno was confused. Who was Jaemin? Who was this strange person in his home cooking meals for him?

"Your best friend Jeno! It's me! Na Jaemin! NaNa!" Jaemin was now panicking.

"I'm sorry, I don't know anyone by the name Na Jaemin.. or NaNa.." Jeno said slowly.

"No no no it's me it's your best friend. Jaemin. I was there for you. I'm so sorry I ended up in this situation I'm so sorry I should've listened." Jaemin then was now dropped to his knees infront of Jeno, grasping his hand.

"Are you okay? Do you need help? Are you lost?" Jeno asked.

Jeno then panicked when he saw tears run down the strangers face, and quickly held his hands.

"Hey hey don't cry please don't cry." Jeno said.

"Why don't you remember me? Why? I know you remember me. I know you do." Jaemin sobbed out.

Jeno was shaken. What was happening? Was this person confused? Lost?

"Here, I'll call the police and maybe they can help-" Jeno started as he reached for the phone.

"NO!" Jaemin yelled as he threw the phone and it landed on the floor, screen cracked.

"Hey! That was my phone!" Jeno said.

"I-I can't leave you like this- ok ok- think Jaemin think." Jaemin kept saying.

"Can I have a cigarette?" Jeno asked.

"What?!" Jaemin exclaimed in shock.

"A cigarette. I sorta feel like I need one so could you-"

"No no! No cigarettes- goddammit Jeno! What have I told you about cigarettes! You said you stopped!" Jaemin half yelled.

"OKOK! Listen here! My name is Na Jaemin. You are Lee Jeno. You and I are best friends and I've been ignoring you and I've been hanging out with friends and getting high- oh god- and I've been drinking underage and I left you all alone-" Jaemin was full on frustrated crying at this point, as he was pulling at his hair. "I should've been there I shouldn't of left I just thought- my feelings they just-"

"Just what?" Jeno asked.

"I love you!" Jaemin yelled and Jeno was taken back.

"But...I don't even know you." Jeno said slowly.

"But you do! Ah- dammit!" Jaemin yelled and was pacing now.

"Calm down please, you could pass out from so much frustration ya know." Jeno said.

Then all the sudden Jeno felt a wave of realization hit him, and he felt light headed again. He quickly grabbed his head as he felt his world spinning, and closed his eyes. He made a small noise of help.

"Jeno! Jeno What's happening! What's wrong!" Jaemin kept saying, but it was all muffled to Jeno.

Then Jeno felt his brain go back into order and all the memories stacked up one by one. He instantly opened his eyes and made eye contact with Jaemin.

"Jaemin?" Jeno started but then made a pained expression as his head hurt. "Ah- What happened?" Jeno asked.

"Jeno! You remember me!" Jaemin said with a big smile.

"Yea of course- hey- why are you crying? What's wrong?" Jeno asked with big eyes all the sudden, but then was met with a large hug from Jaemin.

"I thought I lost you." Jaemin said in a broken whisper.

"Lost me- what- what happened-"

"I promise to always take care of you from now on. I'll never leave your side I'll pay for take out foods or anything you want- I'll help clean and pay the rent just please-" Jaemin started and Jeno was bewildered. "Please don't leave me."

"I won't Nana I won't, sh sh don't cry." Jeno said.

But what he never knew was what had happened that night.

He didn't think he wanted to know.