Mostly it been while since I write something on this damn I didn't feel write anything at this book now just
Feel
Nothing I don't feel nothing I don't know why because the depression I still have inside me? Because I'm giving up hope? One my Friend school I forgot the day told her I have this dream when I go to sleep I wake up in I'm in water but I get something on my let that keep me down as I look around see eye stare at me second later like probably 1min that how long I can hold my breath I start to lose air as try to take the thing on my leg as the light around me start to get darker as each minutes I felt like I was going to die continue try and try as to get worse at my last breath I give up let myself die wake up gasp for air as start to cough a bit probably like 2 day when I told her she told me she found wed wiki saiding that I'm going up my hope of living

Meh...

I don't  know why but I'm crying right now for no reason my body hurt mostly I don't tell no one at all when I cough it hurt it get worse each day with the cough like it will never end

I don't want to worry my friends...
Ernest....
Heaven......
Seth.....
Placido...
Just don't want them to worry I don't want to even use there wattpad account name because then they will see this shit....
Mostly when you see me irl I look like a happy boy mostly talking to his friend but after everyone leaves get home I just sighs and hear my music
Wonder why I said that feel like some one might take my place from this world just somebody might take this account use it when I'm gone probably once I go to sleep then wake up I be other body or not I'm not sure
But now it get hard to see my phone since I'm crying hard now

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GsLMoxa6xZ0

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vnLAa6_hB9A

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iA1z5vXzoRg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iA1z5vXzoRg

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-PjwBSfecoY

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q3yZrxPxlo0

I might change my wattpad to tord from eddworld since mostly he hosent care for no one so yeah if you see me in different look and it show person who a red hoodle that tord by for now