Amator's POV

        It's been nearly a month since my cousin got his career. He spends most of at training, but when he's here it's awful. He always has had anger issues, but now he's encouraged to be violent.

        They tell the new recruits fae are so dangerous that physical force must be used against them at the very least. They tell them to punch anything when they're angry, excluding parents, siblings, friends, and other recruits; they didn't say anything about cousins being excluded.

       So, every time he finds something to be angry about I become his personal punching bag. And of course my aunt and uncle never see his anger because when when they are around the perfect Golden Boy, the perfect angel. I guess the name the Phoenix gave him was more accurate than she thought, according to my mom the Lucifer in the Bible would disguise himself as his former angel of light self to deceive people into doing what he wanted.

        Fae have quicker healing humans do, so the broken ribs, black eyes, and bruises only take anywhere from a few hours to a day maybe two to heal, instead of the days to weeks that will take over human to heal from those injuries, but when he knocks me out it takes awhile to wake up. My cousin thinks I use makeup and pain killers to hide my injuries because he told me if his parents found out and tried to scold him he'd be livid and frankly I don't want to see what he's do if he was that mad at me.

        My friends are getting worried about me; I've never been sick and suddenly I'm missing all these days that Live didn't plan (he plans certain skip days when we all ditch school and hang out at his house.) And for some reason they're not buying the whole "I guess not being sick finally caught up to me" excuse, probably because they know me.

       This whole situation makes me even more concerned for Phoenix. I'm concerned that on one of their mandatory dates he'll get angry and lash out on her. She doesn't know that I've become his punching bag. Fae are very protective of their amor aeternus, if she knew I was getting hurt she'd do everything in her power to stop it, even if that meant her getting hurt herself, which I cannot bear even thinking about.

       Thankfully I think my cousin's too prideful to publicly show his anger issues, so as long as they don't have private date she'll be fine.

      So if it means Phoenix is safe then I'll be my cousin's punching bag.

      It also isn't great that my cousin has as the old saying goes, "the mouth of a sailor", with every beating a verbal bashing is sure to come with it. Words that in one of those old movies my mom talks about would be nothing, but a series of long beeps following one another. The kind of words parents would threaten to wash a child's mouth out with soap if they heard their child utter. Along with the ceaseless insults against me, my dead father, and my (in his mind) dead mother; his words almost hurt me more than his hands and feet.

       As much as I'd love to turn into an alpha wolf and tear him to shreds with my claws and teeth, I can't because if I do so I'm be banished and if I'm not here I fear it will be Phoenix who'll be his target. And it's not like this is an irrational fear considering he's literally giving me beatings because she didn't want to fall into his arms like putty, or kiss him, or let him touch her. Right now, I fear the only thing saving her is public dates and the fact that he has a living breathing punching bag here to take his mind off things and relieve stress.

      Right now, it seems that my only option is to sit quiet, ignore Phoenix for our own good, and let myself be my cousin's punching bag, all of which are things I hate extremely.

      I've been listening to my music more often lately to tune out the world. Sometimes I hear a song that will remind me of Phoenix, scratch that all the time I hear songs that remind of her.

        Every love song whether it be hopeless or hopeful, reminds me of her. The hopeless ones remind me of our current situation, how heartbreaking and sad it appears right now. Yet the hopeful ones make me think of what we could have, which is kind of torture at the moment.

      Right now I'm listening to music hoping better times will come for me and Phoenix which also happens to be the theme of the song I'm listening to, which I believe is called "coal makes diamonds".

      Hopefully, our story will get to be a diamond soon instead of the coal it is now.

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Hey guys!

Raise your hand if you hate Lucifer more now. 🙋

The song Amator is listening to at the end is "Coal Makes Diamonds" by Blue October a group suggested to me by Hestiaeast. I felt it goes good with their situation.

Listen here:

https://youtu.be/bdJaArMIrGE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bdJaArMIrGE

Short chapter, but kinda needed.

I still need fae characters they won't appear for a few more chapters, but so far I only have two one from Hestiaeast and one from IsTrueLoveEvenReal. Thank you both for helping me. 😁

- Countrygirl