Naina

You walk to the base...... Retaining your usual demeanor...... Though there was something oddly different about you.... His mere presence had yet again managed to pull some strings in your heart.... And that idealistic and naive and stubborn girl inside you was returning back.... You had worked hard to suppress that side of yours....yet looking at him after so many days you felt as if you were that stupid cadet ...with silly dreams....

You stare at the ring on your finger and it reminds you of your marriage..and you again scold yourself.... That ship has sailed long ago.....but there are plenty other ships you can board....

You desperately needed a distraction.... And just when you found lt. Sharma hovering around your desk....
"mam i am really sorry about your loss, i heard about your father"
You were actually moved by his gesture.... It was a long time since men had shown this much courtesy to you.... Its a good catch... You decide inwardly...

"thanks for kind words.... Lt.... Now that you are done giving condolences... Shall we speak of work...."

"mam... Actually i came to thank you for considering my request and giving representation for my transfer to head quarters.... I don't know how express my gratitude...."

You smile at his genuineness "its okay lt. You don't to thank me or any one else.... You deserved it after all the good work...."

"no mam... I actually came to request you to join me for dinner.... So i can properly thank you...."
And there he goes..... He has just re-established the axiom that all men the same..... You smile at the fact that at least he could maintain a little courtesy in his approach.... Instead of declaring his direct liking for you..... Or passing any lame complement.....
"just to let you know..... Sympathetic looks and words won't get you anything lt. Sharma... If that's the reason you are hovering here since morning..."

Mam.... Believe me i have no ulterior motive behind this.... I am genuinely grateful"
He was stammering and sweating as you pass a stern gaze... And you smile.....

"relax..... There is no need to get all nervous. Actually i am allergic to assholes.... So just confirmed that you weren't  one"
So.... What's your verdict.... "he utters smilingly.... You curse yourself mentally and get a sudden urge to club him...
He seriously had no boundaries.... You assumed him to be a poor guy.... But this one can speak..... It's surprising..... And you hate surprises....
.." That i shall decide  soon...... And about your ulterior motives.... That we  talk about over dinner... See you at 19:00hrs."

He passed you a coy yet victorious smile as he left your cabin..... And you wondered if you were some asshole magnet...all of them seem to be hopelessly smitten to you...dreaming to get laid....
Dinner went well.... It was actually far better on the scales of weirdos you had dated..... He wasn't over friendly or annoying.... And the fact that he was quite shy and courteous and seemed to be genuinely interested in you.... Made you decide that you must take this further....
"hey..want to come over for coffee.."
You shrug and ask casually... As he drops you at your quarter.... And he turns pale.... Gulping down saliva... And you cringe....
"what a downer...." you mutter in your breathe....as you stare at him.... He is taking too much time to take the cue.... Normally guys you date are quite excited about this part of it.... And he seemed naive.... So you decide to help him out.... To save your time and his....
You tug at his collar and kiss him squarely..... And he is flustered.....its perhaps his first kiss..... Ur subconscious yells at you to stop all this..... Yet you shove it down and continue......
"so... Now wanna come inside or you plan to continue in the car..." you ask him and he nods like an obedient puppy.... You take your keys to unlock the door and your gaze falls on the ring on your finger.... And reality hits you like a big hammer..... You are frozen at your place as he continues to hover around.....
He touches your shoulder to bring you out of your trance..
"i think you should leave now.... I just realised my  coffee maker isn't working...."
"its okay.... I don't drink coffee anyway...  We can just talk" He smiled toothily and you felt a strong urge to break each of those crooked teeth by punching him hard...
" Seriously take the cue and leave man.... "you yell at him.... And bang the door as you get inside.....

There's a big lump in your throat.... As you realise that you were about to betray rajveer.... But where dors this thought come from.... You can't believe how hopelessly guilty  you are feeling right now....you do feel guilty every single time you try this.... And every single time you try dating some random x, y, z in an attempt to  distract yourself and each time as you reach this point you dismiss them.... And end up alone....you can't stand very idea of being close to anyone other than him... In fact it was the fist time you have kissed a guy and to be honest you feel disgusted.... You despise yourself as you realize that you can't get over him.... No matter how hard you try.... And as you clutch the pillow... Strangling it and crying hard.... Your eyes fall on an envelope....
Probably arrived in the morning....

You open it and get terrified as you read....
You have been transferred... To delhi headquarters.... As a reward for your good work.... As your seniors think you had been in jammu for too long and you deserve an easy posting....
Easy posting your ass.... All this seems to be carefully conspiratorial and you get a fishy feeling about these orders...
Since when does army began to shower so much affection on you.... You had requested transfer multiple times to be close to your family... And they had denied every single time..... And now all if sudden... They plan to do a damage control.....

Next day news of your transfer spread like wild fire across the base.... Some people.... Actually most of them including your commanding officer sighed in relief... And some of them were disappointed as they would no longer be getting their share of entertainment which they derived by gawking at you...nasty perverts....

You however have mixed feelings as all this seems to ring a bell alerting you about upcoming disaster.....

Rajveer
You try to focus on the pile of files lying in front of you but fail miserably .. All you can think about is her.... Your eyes gleaming with anticipation... As she would be around you again.... But things are changed now.... And you also fear all  this scheming done by you in order to set things right.... Might not be taken up well by her.... You await the havoc which is about to re-enter your quiet and  dull life..... A havoc named  "naina ah sheekhawat..." your lips curl up in a smile as you subconsciously relate your name to hers.... But your conscious mind yells at you.... Reminds you that it would take a lifetime to set things right.... And for her to accept the fact that she is now " Mrs. Naina ah sheekhawat"