Throughout the rest of the day, all you could think about was Dazai. Why were you thinking of him? You haven't seen him in four years, is that why he's on your mind?

Of course!

"Y/N. Stop daydreaming!" Akutagawa hit your head gently. "You need to fill out a report for the boss since you refuse to speak with even him. You've completely dug your own grave of paperwork. That's something not even I could do. You idiot."

"Oh. Not like I saw anything different that you did."

"Didn't you take the chance to talk with that man when I took Higuchi away? Please tell me you talked with him! Idiot!"

("That man" is Akutagawa's name for Dazai BTW! BLT! Now I'm hungry..)

"Of course I did! I'm not that stupid! Like I'd give up that chance to hear him talk."

"Did he say why he left?"

"Oda- Is she supposed to be here?"

Higuchi was stepping into the doorway and obviously trying to listen in.

"Higuchi! You shouldn't listen in on your superiors. If the doors are closed and I'm in here alone with Y/N, you don't enter. Understood?"

"Yes Akutagawa-Senpai. Sorry. It's just, the boss wanted me to give this to you, Senpai."

"Tch. So she still couldn't knock." You mumble, earning a nasty look from Higuchi.

You turned away and smiled pleasingly behind her back.

"Fine. There delivered. Now go." Akutagawa snarled.

Higuchi walked out of your work space and you turn back to Akutagawa. "What's in the mail?"

"Trash and a letter from Gin."

"Is she gonna come back soon?"

He didn't answer.

"Fine then ignore me. I hope she comes back though."

"Why? You don't even talk to her.

"She doesn't talk either!!!" You pointed out. "But I want her to come back 'cause I want to see you smile! When she's around, even if it's not on your lips you smile!"

"What are you talking about?" He said analyzing the letter, and not looking up.

"Like right now! She wrote something good and your eyes are smiling! Or would it be your soul?"

"What's the difference?"

"Well- where are you going?"

"Home. Did you run out of food?"

"Ummmmm... I think... Either way can I please come over? I wanna see Gin!"

"No."

"Awwww why not?"

He pointed to the reports as he opened his next letter.

You let out a groan.

"I'll wait with you. Just hurry up, you pig."

"Oh shut up, Mr. I-Don't-Want-Y/N-To-Know-Anything-About-Me meh meh bleh!"

"Emo Yandere Freak."

"What's wrong with that? You introvert Dazai obsessed-"

You felt his glare on you.

"Sorry that was too far!!"

"Don't mention him here! He doesn't love either of us! Don't mention his name here! Not until he notices me..."

"Shut it." You've had enough of hearing him mope about Dazai.

"Y/N?"

"You don't need his love. Not when someone is clearly trying to love you! Even I couldn't miss that. Isn't it obvious?"

You had walked so close to Akutagawa, that your face was on his chest.

"I love you Akutagawa. If you forget that, you'll only be more desperate for something that doesn't exist! Please understand, I've always wanted to be with you. Don't go throwing around how lonely you are. Not around me."

"Y/N. You truly love me? Then prove it. I know nothing about love. Your going to have to show me. Until I figure it out, your going to have to be a very good teacher."

Your face was red and wet from tears. "Akutagawa...just please, smile for me?"

He turned away. You sat at your desk and didn't stop him when he opened the door.
"Five 'o clock, Y/N. Gin will arrive around then."

You didn't look up. He knew you heard him though. You never ignore him.

How do I teach a murder machine about love? He should know with how much he waits for Dazai's 'affection' or whatever. But, as long as Akutagawa-Senpai thinks I can, then I can do anything and everything. Isn't that what I'm teaching him, after all?

Akutagawa's POV (special!)

I closed the door to our office. Higuchi was waiting for me as usual.

"What?" I growled.

"It's just, you and her were talking for a while and the curtains to your hall window were closed. I wanted to be sure nothing was happening, Senpai."

"Nothing you need to be concerned about, Higuchi. Don't you listen to your superiors?"

"Yes Senpai I'm sorry, but the boss said not to leave the two of you alone!"

"Why?"

"He doesn't want any romantic relationships happening in the Maifia. He thinks it will stray everyone from they're jobs and duties."

I felt my face grow hot. Luckily, Higuchi was behind me not beside me.

"Why would there be romantic relationships between me and Y/N? I've known her forever. She's like my little sister."

But after her confrontation, is that really true? Perhaps I always thought of her as a lover but never wanted to admit it to myself. Of course, I always loved Y/N. Her very presence is wonderful. Will she arrive for Gin's return? Probably. She's come to every gathering or dinner I was at. No doubt even if she's embarrassed, she will still show up. That's who Y/N is. How she is. Is that why I love her? Who cares why. All I know is that, I do love her. And she loves me. And I'm going to find the perfect time to confess to her, for myself.

We turned down the hall in complete silence. Is she going to legitimately tail me to my house?
"Higuchi. Go home, or get your work done, I don't care. Just don't follow me. I don't need you to help me when I'm capable of taking care of myself, thanks."

She stopped walking. "Senpai..." I heard her say faintly.

I froze.

~Flashback~

At the river where he and Y/N first met:

"I will! See you there! Senpai..."

~Present~

Shes not Y/N though, now is she?