A/N: This chapter is like a flashback but in NATSU'S POV. Anyway, I really don't want to update yet. My cat just died and since then I'm having a panic attack this past few days. And I had to do something to prevent me for doing something foolish. 

*take a deep breath* enjoy reading this chapter. Again this is just like a flashback but in Natsu's Pov. Thank you.

Khiegilsan

NATSU's POV

I'D MAKE sure that Lucy was okay after I left her in my house. I couldn't think properly because of what she said to me about Robert Gillain. And to be honest, it keeps on haunting me. She said that man once became her friend until that man hurt her. I'm actually thinking that probably, that man is the guy who Lucy secretly falls in love with.

"Natsu!"

My sentiment was cut short when a strong arm forcefully threw his arms around my shoulder. I frowned and then removed his arm and gave him a light punch on the jaw before I turned my sit so I could properly see the face of this asshole.

"Gray," I said, "What the hell are you doing here?"

He rolled his eyes at me "Duh! This is my bar," he said in the matter – in – fact tone "I never see you this past week. What happened to you?"

"Lucy got the flu. I can't just leave her and show my face to you" I grimace "And why the fuck am I explaining this to you. You are not even my girlfriend for fuck sake"

Gray laugh "Chill man!" he sat right next to me and ordered some drink for himself "Speaking of Lucy, I heard that Robert Gillian's parole is approved"

A frowned embedded into my face and look at his face "What the fuck are you talking about?"

"You didn't know?" Gray ask disbelief "Robert Gillian is the one who abducted and almost killed Lucy"

I opened my mouth to speak but words failed me. Is that the reason why Lucy's behaving like that?

"Oh, now that I remembered. You were not here when Lucy got kidnapped," Gray said without looking at me and just kept on staring at his drink "It was a big news man. I heard that Lucy was almost died because of the tortured"

"When did that happen?" I asked. I don't know why Zeref and our parents hide this fact about me. Gray frowned as if he can't believe that I didn't know that news, "Just fucking tell me, Gray"

"I really don't remember any details about it, Natsu" he sighs. "All I know is that Lucy got kidnapped in the airport parking lot. And it took them three days to find her."

I frowned. Airport parking lot? What the hell is she doing there?

I opened my mouth to speak but I couldn't find my own voice and at the same time my words failed me too. Gray excuses himself for a moment since he needs to greet some of the VIP customers. I told him that he just needs to focus on his business and I'm about to go home too. He didn't ask me anything and I was glad he didn't.

By the time I got home. I immediately went to her room to check if she was okay. She was sleeping soundly and she didn't seem to notice me entering her room either. I approached her and sat on the side of the bed - then caressed her cheek.

"Now I'm proven," I smile bitterly "I don't know anything about you, babe" I mumble.

I feel like I don't know her whole being. I feel like all I know about her is... She's Lucy Heartfilia - nothing more. And it pains me because I want to know her more. I want to have her. She stayed in my house for another week before I let her go to work.

My eyes widened when I entered her office. She is currently taking off her clothes. I held my breath the moment I saw her bare skin.

"What—"

The woman seemed to become a statue and immediately turned to me. Her eyes widened as her lips parted. I immediately took off my coat and approached her to cove her body.

"Why are you undressing here?" I ask her. What if someone saw her? Damn it!

"Why are you here?" she asks me calmly as if me being here is more shocking than seeing her naked.

"You didn't wait for me before leaving my house," I immediately answered, "I came here to see if you arrived safely. Only to find out that you were undressing. What if someone else came in here?" I almost yelled at her.

She explained to me that while she was in her office no one would try to enter. I doubt it. But, I could do nothing but agree with her, because I didn't want us to fight.

That day, I went to her office again to say that we were going home. I saw the shock, fear and pain in her eyes as she held her cellphone. She didn't tell me the reason and then that was the time she shut herself inside her office and never allowed me to enter.

Three days, I didn't see her face for an entire three days. And since then, I'm a little bit annoyed. I want to see her face. I want to hear her voice. When I arrived, I immediately spotted her. She looks beautiful even without makeup. Under her eyes is proof that she has worked hard these past few days.

But, when I saw her talking to that man. Jealousy started consuming my body.

"Stop acting like you one this lady, Mister Dragneel" I look at the man who said it. What the fuck is this guy talking about? "Stop acting like that because you are scaring her"

"Archer—"

"Let's go, Lucy"

I look at her. Am I scaring her? I wanted to speak but my own words failed me.

Even though I had a lot to do that day. But, I followed them secretly. And there, I saw how she acted towards her friend. I saw her happily talking about her job. About the satisfaction she felt. And to be honest, I never saw her talk like that in front of me. Not even once.

I never saw her act like that in front of me. And I admit...

It hurts because it looks like I couldn't give her that sense of easiness.

I went back to my office and there I received the news that Lisanna was coming home. And because of that news, I was even more confused by how I feel. I don't know if I'm still in love with Lisanna or am I in love with Lucy. I'm confused.

Another three days passed, and I saw her face. My heart clenched in pain for unknown reasons. I tried to smile at her and she did the same as if she was silently telling me that everything's gonna be alright. I wanted to open my mouth but I couldn't...

"Natsu... I have to tell you something..."

I was confused looking at her. I stared on her face as if I'm trying to read her mind. She smiled at me – reassuring me but I saw pain cross into her eyes as she looked at me. I didn't hesitate to approach her and instantly hugged her to comfort her.

It felt like she was going to leave me. She didn't move for a few seconds but then I felt her hand on my back "Why do I feel like you were going to leave me, babe?" I'm scared... I don't want to hear it. I don't want to lose her.

"Lisanna is coming back, Natsu" she whispers and I flinch. "She called me six days ago. But what I'm going to tell you is not really related to her but to me. And I really hope that you will listen to me."

She slipped out of my embrace and stared into my face. I'm confused. Why the fuck are you telling me this? I clear my throat and then I look down. I don't care about Lisanna. I want to know why I feel like you're going to leave me.

I couldn't see her face but I saw her reach for my hands – squeezing it silently, "I'm the one here in front of you but you're thinking about her, Natsu" I instantly look at her. What the fuck! I'm not thinking about other woman besides you! "Don't worry Natsu. If you want to see my best friend. I won't stop you. But please, hear me out"

I don't want to hear it because I'm scared. But I found myself answering her with a sigh, "All right tell me"

She took a deep breath and looked at me "I love you, Natsu!"

Why? Why the hell are you in love with me? I hurt you. I spoke hurtful words. I even requested you to find me a wife. Then you say, you love me. Why? I know I look stupid now - but I can't understand how she loved me.

I'm an asshole! A fucking asshole for hurting you!

Pain crosses her eyes as she looks at me as if she misunderstood my reaction. I open my mouth to speak "I... Lucy" I don't know what to say. Should I say sorry for all the things I have done? "You can't love me, yet" I almost whispered the last part.

You should wait for me to confess first, Lucy! You deserve it!

"I know. I just want to inform you," she smiled at me before sighing "You don't have to answer me, Natsu. I'm okay"

I want to cry because I can clearly see that she wasn't okay. She told me that she needs to prepare for the meeting this morning and left me there as if she didn't confess her feelings to me.

A day after he confessed his feelings, Lisanna returned to the country. I decided to meet him in advance before the welcome party for their couple.

"You probably won't ask me to get married," Lisanna joked at me.

I grimace "I'm sorry for forcing you" I mumble under my breath and she smile at me "I love your best friend, Lisanna"

"I know" she said

I frowned "You do?"

She laughed at me "Remember when we were in high school?" I nodded "You said you had a crush on me, but whenever we're on a date. You always mention Lucy. And then that was I realized that you like her and you're just a dumb - salmon - freak who doesn't know your own feelings," she chuckle as if she remember something from the past "Because I was angry at you that time. I remembered saying that Lucy loves cheesecake when in fact she hates it"

"What the fuck" I curse under my breath.

She stared at me for a moment before she smile at me, "You have to confess to her, Natsu"

"She's avoiding me actually," I said.

"My sister will throw a welcome party for me and my husband. I can help you with your confession" she said and I accepted her offer.

I thought everything was okay. Everything was fucking okay not until Lucy saw me practicing my confession to Lisanna. I wanted to clear the misunderstanding but she just refused to listen. Did I hurt her too much for us to be like this? She's always flipping the meaning of my actions and my words. And it's fucking hurts because I don't fucking know what to do!

I love her too much!

"I... I... gathered all the courage I have left in my body when I confessed to you. And right now, I want to tell you that I'm sorry that I have to reject you"

Damn shit! "But we love each other" I mumble. We fucking in love but we can't be together!

She smiled towards me "I needed myself, Natsu. That's why I need to leave" I fucking understand what she wants but I just can't...

"Where will you go, babe?" I asked her "You can stay here with me? And I'll help you, babe. I promise you! I'll help you. Please don't leave me! How I will make it up to you, babe if you're going to leave me"

I saw pain crossing her eyes but she still managed to smile at me "I love you too much to the point that I forgot to love myself, Natsu. I... I wanted to love myself now"

I beg to her to stay but she refused. I fucking understands what she wants but how can I let go of her. I love her too much!

I have a lot of plans for us. I wanted to try everything with her. I want to discover the world with her. I kissed her. I pour my feelings through my kisses. Hoping that my unspoken feelings will reach her.

I told her, I will do everything I want but I actually don't have plans on stopping her.

When she fell asleep, I had to cover my mouth so I wouldn't wake her up with my cries. I cried the whole night while I was hugging her in my arms. I couldn't help but break down. I don't know if she will come back to me. Tomorrow, she will leave me.

I don't understand. I don't understand but I have to let her go.

"You said... you love me" I whispered. My voice broke.

I kissed her forehead. I didn't sleep the whole night because I was cherishing our last moment together. Before the sun could rise, I stood up, took a shower and made our breakfast. I saw her enjoying the breakfast I made for her. And then I help her pack her things. It's almost like I'm killing myself.

After that, I accompanied her. She told me she needs to say goodbye with her friends so I let her.

"I'm breaking up with you since you said that you will be my boyfriend until I leave"

I bit my lower lips and nodded "Time to go, Lucy"

Seeing her leave just brought nothing but more pain. I told myself not to run after her but I still can't just let her leave when I could see her for the last time. Just one minute... just for a few seconds. Those were already enough for me.

"I...I..."

"I love you, Lucy Heartfilia"

I went home after seeing the plane leave. I immediately went to her room and hug the pillow as if it was her. When I turned on the side table – I saw her note left for me.

Maybe someday,

Our love won't hurt us.

Take care of yourself, Natsu

- Lucy

I cried after reading the note she left. I kneeled on the floor, my lips trembled and my tears won't stop streaming down my cheeks.

"I'll wait for that 'someday'," I whispered, holding the note

I will never get tired of waiting. Because I love her. Someday... maybe someday. She will come back to my arms again.

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