"Jinny?" call me when I am about to startle Jennie unnie from behind, I was strolling around Hongdae with Natty and my eyes accidentally bump to Jennie unnie who's standing in front of clothes store. I was about to call her when I saw her waving her hand to someone, Jinny.

Of course Jennie unnie sometime come to Jinny's house to talk with me, to make sure that Sommi is not around. But not even for once I saw her talk with Jinny, that's why this feels strange if they meet behind my back, and Jennie unnie's face smiling ear to ear as if they already be friend for such a long time. My smile faded when I watch them hugging and walk to opposite side of my state.

I walk behind them, as close as I can, so I can eavesdrop their conversation. I cross the street and entering the café and sat near their table, face palming I pretend to read the menu.

"Thanks for coming." Jennie unnie beam beside me. "I don't know who to talk with."

"That's okay Jen. I told you to call me whenever you need something. We had the same desire, beside." She answered with the same cheery voice. "I don't want to waste the time." Somehow, her words send me shiver down my spine. I know who she is, the fearless Jinny who won't flinch at anything she want to do. No matter how hard it was, no matter how dangerous it is.

"I'll go home." I tell Jinny and her family when we had dinner together. Her father look at me with sad eyes, I love him and already count him as my own father since before. Every time bad thing happen, and it must be caused by me and Jinny, but he would only blame Jinny for that. He trust me more than to Jinny. That's what he did once I got home with bloody hand to his house, he angrily saying that he will make Soomi spend the rest of her life in jail. He trust me, he trust me that I am not the one who try to kill Soomi. He trust me even when my mother can't.

"Why?" he ask me half whined make me smile cutely.

"I should face all of this uncle. I should meet mom too. No matter if she cant trust me, she had no one but me." And he nodded half heart.

"But there is no one will able to watch on you 24/7." Jinny told me, I rolled my eyes on her.

"I am not a baby." I tell her annoyed, she always think that I am weak. She always said that I am as dangerous as fire, but she also not forget to remind me that fire won't stay alive if there is no gasoline.

"Yes, and I will be relieved if you are baby."

"Why are you always babysitting me? We are in the same age." I whined make the mother chuckled while patting uncle's shoulder. "I will go home. And I promise you to take care of myself."

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I step out from B.I's car, watching the house in front of me make my heart aching. I miss this place. I grab my chest when I feel something, sadness grow inside my chest.

"We can always come back to Jinny's place." Said B.I from my side, right hand hold my bag and his left hand hold my hand. I shook my head and smile at him.

"I am okay." I assure him and hold his hand tighter. I am okay B.I. "It's only my mom. She also didn't believe in me last time beside. So what's the difference now?"

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"Hi." He said startled me when I read a book in the library, standing in front of the shelf book, I watch to the man across me. He bite his lips, bit scared of rejection. Holding the book on my hand, I roll my eyes and continue reading the book as if I never seen anything, never heard anything.

He said that he will save me, he cried and hug me saying that he will save me. Yet, he always trying and pushing our luck every time we are near together. I still remember when he silently help me in the class, when I am zoning out and the professor seems know it, she ask me about the thing, and he give me the clue. Act like this won't help.

You better not doing contact with Jungkook. I remembered what mom said the night I comeback to the house. She cried and cried, holding the hand of mine she cried as if I already dead. She said that it's what he made, but turn out, that's only my stubbornness which is make me included into this messy life of them, of Jungkook and Soomi.

"How's your hand?" he softly ask me, not give up and come closer to the shelf which is standing between us. He is eyeing my hand, still with the bandage I hide it under the book I hold. "I wish it could be healed very soon."

"Then how about my feeling?" can't restrain the disappointment inside my head I ask him back with my rude voice. "Can it healed?" his eyes locking with mine, still full of sadness. When will our heart cured?

He can't speak anything, clenching his jaw as I do the same, I smile bitterly then place the book to the hole in the shelf where he use to look over me, closing his eyes with the book, I walk away. Please, if you want to go, never comeback with that sad eyes. Half running I reach the parking lot, wiping the tears I cross the street and heard loud horn from my left, startled immediately my step stop.

"She is crazy. Fuck." Cursed the one who pull me from the street and watching the black familiar car passed by us. "Bonnie, I tell you to wait at the parking lot." He said angrily to me, B.I. Speechless I still look at the car direction where it's disappear, why did she do this again? What do I do wrong again? "We should send her to the jail, really, she almost do that again."

"What was that?" half running Jinny come toward us asking B.I.

"That tiny monster, god damn it. That Min sister, I swear I will ask father to make her rotten in the jail." Furrowing her brows Jinny come to me and eyeing my body, I am okay beside.

"Not that easy." She said and then pull me, drag me to the parking lot when Jennie unnie stand, smirking to me.

"no, of course no." I half screaming toward Jinny in front of me, we are inside Jennie unnie's bedroom. They drag me here, saying they had some fun stuff to talk. "And you will never do that with or without me, get it?" I pointed my index finger to her.

"But she almost do that again." With her inherit of stubbornness she keep pushing her own idea on me. Big no. "You won't wish we will stay still waiting you to die right?"

"Jinny, it's to harsh." Complain Jennie unnie when Jinny said a 'die' words. "And yes we will keep do that." She then said that to me without changing her expression.

"No, unnie. She is crazy, we know that. Then don't be crazy like her too." I tell her. "Even if we do that. Even if I agree, what will we have after that? We probably will die with her, or else we will go to the jail spending our youth."

"I never complain about the risk, as long as she will stop. This is not the first time I kill someone." Jinny start it again, the heartless Jinny just wake up. "I am trying to ask her to death but seems she is too selfish, she won't do that, she won't take risk to think that Jungkook will end up with you after she die, so she will keep trying to kill you."

"That's bullshit. No, don't do this. You know how many years we live under the same regret Jinny. No, please stop. I am okay if she try to kill me. I have all of you with me." I still insist, I can't imagine the three of us will end up as a criminal, no.

"How if she try to kill Jungkook?" I look up starring at Jennie unnie. No.

"No, she won't. She loves him." Quickly I erase the thought from my head, does it even make sense? Smirking Jennie unnie look at my eyes, calmly spell that words.

"She said sa-rang-hae instead of love every time she confess to him. You know what it means?" I am frozen on my spot to even react to her words.

"sa is die, rang means together, and hae means doing." As Jennie unnie explain that my head catch the meaning, Let's die together. As if she knew my thought just now then she nodded her head to me, smiling like a proud mother who's watching her daughter finding out what she want to tell.

"Yes, darling. Min Jisoo, is the girl who will destroy the cute and lovely teddy bear she loves just because it can't be hers."

"Still.. don't."