I left the house today. And when I say left the house I mean went beyond my driveway.

No. Don't cheer, this isn't a cheering matter. This is a routine occurrence that doesn't ever have the results that I want it to have. But little in my life right now goes my way so why should this?

But maybe I should look on the bright side. I do live in Southern California so that is how a lot of the world is viewed on a daily basis.

Bright side...

Have you ever felt the complete power and superiority of confounding multiple doctors?

And yes that's doctors with an S.

I mean think about it, these are the people with all the answers. You walk into their waiting room and just by looking at you they know what's wrong. A couple of tests of your blood and they have the answers to the universe. A few scans and charts that don't make any sense to the common man and they can decipher your future.

These are the Titans of Our World.

They cure the incurable.

They fight the unseen enemies that float in the air.

They vanquish the diseases we mere mortals fear.

These are the walking superhumans that we all rush to with our troubles.

We flock to them when the world is in crisis.

When everything looks like its hopeless, we ask them for answers and they give them.

When I speak of doctors, this is who I mean.

So imagine the rare power a seventeen year old girl feels when she stumps them.

When she says I feel pain and none of their blood tests, scans, charts can explain why.

Imagine how invigorating it is to know that she has done the impossible, she has thwarted the titans of this world. With her whacked out body, she has brought confusion to the inconfusiable. (Yeah, I know that's not a word, who cares.)

Imagine the evil cackle she lets out when she leaves one doctor to find another because they had failed to make sense of her. Oh the power she feels knowing that doctor after doctor will be left debilitated, humiliated, humbled because they can't solve her illness.

Am I weak from pain or am I strong because I make the unthinkable happen?

Have you ever felt the complete and utter hopelessness of confounding multiple doctors?

Doctors that should have all the answers? That should have the answer to you? To your pain? 

Yeah, me too.

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Hey there you Sassy Snowdrop!

(Not gonna lie, snowdrops seem like the most unlikely flowers to have sass. Though maybe they have hidden depths)

Oh look! There's that depressing note I thought was missing from this book! Yay! So glad it could be included, it was getting a little too lighthearted for my taste.

If you have thoughts... we'll good for you! That's a positive we can focus on. 💬🗯💭😯

Do I have thoughts?

All the time.

Are they worth sharing?

Rarely.

Do I want to share them now?

Now really.

Is that all I have to say?

Yes, actually it is.

*throws vote, comment, follow at you*