My buddies, they've gone far and wide

Advanced forward with great stride, whether a slide or a climb

They've earned greatest of deeds and bested most fearsome of feats

I'm still here, still can't clean my own shiet

Deep in a rut, grapple with my own tail

Gnawing on it till numbed, not knowing day or night

Scouring a den to hide, never need to face the sunlight

I'm a lost cause, nowhere to be found

A hallucinated mayfly, burnt itself in own retardation

It's gone; I'm a owee to none

Feast on this tail and it'll be the last one.

Don't wanna get hurt, don't wanna work

For no one would flog a lame horse

So I scarred myself and licked my own wounds

Let me be a self-torture machine

Then I'll be left alone

I can't give up the status quo

For if I do I'll miss this hurting sensation

Of having myself as the staple

Drinking the red dry, no chance for a cry

Didn't know a loser's tail tasted so great

Whatever I try, I'm back with my tail to eat.

12/11/2022?

Note: Bài này cũng hơi tiêu cực, nên mình cũng không được thích nó cho lắm :)) Coi như là một đoạn nhật ký của tâm trạng, haha :))