"if you love him, go for it. if you're still hurt, then don't" taehyung patted the red haired boy's back, trying to calm him down.

"i don't know tae"

he's dying, no one will get it.

the boy think he suffered enough, making his desicion a final.

not taking up the operation.

he's obviously not going to tell anyone, especially the boy next to him.

"lets just walk to class" jimin nodded and the both us started walking slowly to their class. jimin raised his head up, only to put it back down once he saw jungkook walking at the other end of the hallway.

they passed through each other, shoulders brushing gently but none of them uttered a word.

i should stop feeling this way.

i can't anymore.

jungkook couldn't focus at all, he would either be tapping his pen on his table, or look out of the classroom, mind occupied with a certain boy.

will jimin show up? will jimin forgive him? will he be able to tell his hyung he loves him?

his own mind bombarded him with questions, none of them being positive.

the latter sighed for the nth times as he rested his cheek on his left palm, a visible pout appeared on his lips.

jimin disappeared himself from chemistry which was the last period and entered the washroom. he turned on the tap and splashed water on his face, looking up at the mirror, seeing his own reflection.

what is it that people find attractive from me?

he turned off the tap as he gripped the edge of the sink and hung his head down.

should i meet him? what if he breaks my dying heart again? can i take the pain again?

no.

the sound of the bell made him shake off his thoughts as he took his bag and exited the washroom. students started flooding the hallway as jimin struggled towards the direction of the rooftop.

his steps got heavier once he was getting nearer up. the boy panted softly once he reached the top, regaining his pace back. he held the door's handle, and his mind started playing with him again.

you're dying anyways, won't you just hurt jungkook if you guys love each other?

jungkook deserves better than someone who is sick.

he deserves better than someone who wants to end his life.

"i'm sorry jungkook"

the next thing jimin knew, he was rushing his way down and back home. he locked himself in his room and released quiet sobs, making his head feel dizzy once again.

he didn't show up.

he gave up on me.

i'm starting to lose hope too.

"i'll leave your life jimin hyung. if that makes you happy, i'll do it" jungkook wiped off his tears roughly with his sleeves and made his way down and back home. locking and curling himself up and in his room.

this is it.

jimin will never be mine.

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why cant i live in peace.