Before you start reading please take into regards there is very brutal abuse in this chapter and a small scene of rape. It is important to the story if you will be triggered by that part please do just skip over it.
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Dazai stood in the clinic and he read over the file. He clenched the file in his hands and he started sobbing silently. It was true. What Fyodor said was far from a lie. Chuuya did have an abortion. Dazai had a lot of regrets when it came to Chuuya. He did a bunch of stupid things. Things he wanted to make up for. If Dazai would have know. He would have been there. Dropped everything. Tried his best to fix their damaged relationship. Dazai hated himself, hated that Chuuya felt having an abortion was the only way out. Dazai wanted to actually speak with Chuuya and tell him how sorry his was. Tell him how much he regretted it.

*Past*

Chuuya heard the door slam loudly, and he walked to the front door. Dazai was in an awful state. His shirt was untucked, hair unruly, and Chuuya knew. Chuuya knew he was drunk. Chuuya knew he had to tread lightly.

"Dazai...?"

"Oh Chuuya." Dazai chuckled drunkenly. "I thought you'd be asleep." Dazai said taking another swig of his whiskey.

"N-no... I had work to do but... I am about to go to sleep... So goodnight."

"Sleep?" Dazai chuckled. "Oh cmon! The party is just getting started!" Dazai said as he walked in the bedroom behind Chuuya.

"Dazai... You're drunk... And I am tired... I'm going to bed." Chuuya said softly.

"No. No. No." Dazai said as he grabbed Chuuya's arm pushing him on the bed.

"D- Dazai what are you doing..." Chuuya said as he tried to push Dazai off but he felt Dazai forcing his legs open. "What are you doing! St-stop! Get off me!"

Chuuya cried out as he felt Dazai roughly push his member inside of him. Dazai thrusted roughly into Chuuya and Chuuya cried. "Stop! Please stop! You're hurting me!"

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Chuuya sobbed into the sheets as he curled up in a ball. Chuuya felt disgusted. He felt violated. He felt betrayed. Chuuya heard Dazai zip up his pants and rebuckle his belt.

"Shut up! Would you just be quiet?! It's not anything we haven't done before." Dazai said taking another swig.

"Y- You raped me... You forced yourself in me... I told you no... I told you to stop..." Chuuya cried. "I hate you! I will never forgive you!"

"What did you just say?"

"I said I hate you! Fuck you Dazai!" Chuuya sobbed.

Dazai looked hatefully at Chuuya and he slapped him hard. Dazai got on top of Chuuya and Chuuya punched him in the face causing his nose to bleed. Dazai in a fit of rage started hitting Chuuya in the face. Chuuya was dizzy but he had to fight back. Chuuya kicked Dazai in the stomach and he got off the bed wobbly. Dazai grabbed Chuuya's ankle before he could go any further and Chuuya fell. Dazai grabbed his hair hard and yanked back slamming his face into the floor. Chuuya groaned as he felt himself be turned around and Chuuya screamed. As Dazai started choking him. Dazai was choking the life out of Chuuya. He was shaking him and he was watching the life go out of Chuuya's eyes. All of a sudden Chuuya heard the front door bust open and Dazai let go of Chuuya.

"Yokohama Police Department!"

Chuuya heard several foot steps before he blacked out. A man's eyes widened as he opened the door. "Oh my god. Call an EMT! Now!"

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When Chuuya came to he was in the hospital. He was hooked up to all kinds of IV's most likely for pain. Chuuya looked over slowly at his mother and she stood up abruptly.

"Oh my god Chuuya!" Kouyou sat on the bed next to him kissing his forehead.

"What happened to me...?" Chuuya asked hoarsely.

"You're in the hospital. Someone raped you and beat you half to death... We had to wait until you woke up to find out who did that to you. Do you remember who hurt you Chuuya?" Kouyou asked softly.

"...no..." Chuuya knew. But no matter what Dazai did he still loved him. Because he knew that wasn't Dazai, he knew in his heart Dazai wasn't a bad person. But to say his heart wasn't breaking was a lie. If the tears were any indication of how hurt he was.

*Present*

Chuuya was shuffling through the drawer in the bed room. Fyodor walked in and his eyes softened as he noticed old scars on Chuuya's back. Fyodor walked over kissing Chuuya's shoulder lightly. Chuuya trembled slightly and he pulled away.

"It's okay mon amour. It's just me." Fyodor said smiling. "I didn't mean to frighten you. I'm sorry."

"No I'm sorry. I just-"

"You don't have to explain I know." Fyodor said comfortingly. "I know." Fyodor said as he rubbed his hand softly. Fyodor kissed his cheek softly and Chuuya smiled as he slipped his night shirt on.

"Let's go to bed hm? Today has been terribly awful."

Chuuya nodded as he slid into the bed with Fyodor. Fyodor covered them up and he kissed Chuuya softly on his face.

"I love you Chuuya."

"I love you too Fyo." Chuuya smiled. Fyodor looked behind him at Rei in his crib sleeping softly.

"He is so beautiful. Just like you."

Chuuya blushed at that as he kissed Fyodor again.

"Thank you Fyo. Thank you for always being here, loving me, protecting me and Rei, we are so lucky to have you." Chuuya said smiling.

"I'm more lucky." Fyodor smiled and he kissed Chuuya again. "How about tomorrow... Me, you, and Rei go out for the day? We could use it. You've been couped up in the house far too long mon amour. You and Rei both. Also do not worry about work. I have asked Mori to let you have the year off."

"Ha?!? Fyo you didn't ask me! I can't-!"

"Shhh. You don't wanna wake Rei. He also said he would have you on paid leave. There is nothing to worry about." Fyodor kissed his forehead gently.

Chuuya sighed. "Alright..." Chuuya said as Fyodor gave him an eskimo kiss. "Also I would love for us to go out. Maybe the fresh air will help my depression and anxiety."

"That's my beautiful doll." Fyodor smiled as he kissed him again and pulled him into his arms lovingly. Fyodor would do whatever it took to keep Chuuya and Rei safe and happy. No matter what the costs.